The Chronicles of John Trammell

     Bullying.  A terrible issue that handfuls of people experience in their lives.  Some experience way more dramatic bullying than others.  Bullying comes in many different ways, and are not always physical.  An issue that we as a society need to work hard to fix.  How to fix this problem is one of the hardest questions?  For everyone who has met and interacted with me, you will find that they have nothing but good things to say.  If you begin hangout with my friends and I, you will  notice they can tease me at times and I just laugh and enjoy that.  I will normally say that I have a thick skin.  Many people like that aspect of me.  The interesting thing is that no one has ever asked me how I became to have such a thick skin for that.  Last night, that thick skin was broken from something that was taken too far.  Because of that, I felt it was time to put my story somewhere.  Why not on my blog?  Of course, no one will really know about this post because no one ever cares enough to p

     Something is wrong.  I feel like I am in a potential emotional wreck.  I don't know how to feel.  I don't know if I feels sad and want to cry.  I don't know if I should be angry and be pissed at people.  I don't know what to do.  All I know is that I just don't give a fuck to do anything at the moment.  I had 4-H meetings all day yesterday.  Afterwards, I went to Scotty's brother's (Chris) house warming/engagement party.  Scotty and Jane were there, and Jane was not having that good of a time because of Noelle.  Noelle, who we went to high school with and always had a thing for Scotty, is now dating Scotty.  Jane and I both do not agree with them dating.  If they know that or not, I am unsure.  Since Jane was at the party, Noelle had made comments and gave her nasty stares that were not making Jane happy.  Because of that, I decided to go over to the party.  I was tired, and didn't expect to be their that long.  I arrived, and majority of Scotty'

     Nights at home are the loneliest times for me.  It is the time of day where I sit in my dark bedroom.  There are only a few things that I can truly do: do work (I never do this late), play video games, watch tv/movies, sit at my computer to browse the internet, or just sit/lay around being stuck with my thoughts until I get bored enough to just go to sleep.  Most nights at home end up being sitting at the computer and/or just sitting around being bored.  Everyone in the house is asleep.  It really wouldn't matter if they were awake.  This family isn't close enough anymore where I would consider killing time and making small talk with the parents. Hell, I am more close to my cousins on my mom's side than my parents.  My friends are either asleep or off doing other things, and there normally isn't anyone online that I could talk to that goes beyond just general small talk.  Its funny.  Many people talk about how great social media is to connect to so many people, but