The Plan: First Speed Bump
From my last blog post, you will see that I had created a plan to start training towards a goal of running in a 5K. Main goal of this training is to become a healthier self, and to lose weight. Things started off great, but then I hit the first speed bump towards accomplishing my goals.
I had completed the first week of the couch to 5K training plan with great success. Afterwards, I felt I had made a great accomplishment that I would be proud of down the road. When week 2 had began, the first run went great! It was hard for me to jump up the courage to get out there, but I did it! Sadly, this was the last time I had done the training program. The time that I was supposed to run the second day of week 2 of the plan, I had to travel out to California State University Northridge for the 2012 American Camping Association Training. It is a requirement for all 4-H summer camp staff. My plan at this point was to get back on the plan the next day. Unfortunately, that never happened. That coming week was finals week, and I had to put all my attention towards studying for finals. Since half my weekend was spend doing 4-H work, the rest had to be school. I figured finals were more important at that time. I told myself once finals are over, I will pick up right where I left off.
Everything seemed to be alright, until another speed bump hit me. The day after I finished taking my finals, I became sick. Probably because of the stress from finals. Got to love college. Being sick took me out for three days. After I started feeling better, I had Scotty's B-day party to go to. My god I have to say I had a lot to drink that night, and a lot of bad foods. Near the end of the time, I felt like a total fat ass, and started thinking about different things. Of course, not letting my friends see that I had something on my mind. Mostly had to deal with my size maybe the result as to why I can never find girl friends, and how I was probably the only virgin at this party. I was blaming my size as the result of that. Anyway, the next day, after that party, which was great for the post part, I said I needed to get back on track. I spent an afternoon hanging out with Jane. We had a dinner picnic k up at Lake Gregory in Crestline. We did some walking on the trail that went around the lake.
That night, I looked at my calendar, and realized this was a back time to start up the plan. Starting this Saturday, I am to be out of town for 13 days on different 4-H trips and a personal trip. There is no way I can attempt to do a plan while on this. I decided to find another physical activity I can do to start now, then after my trips, I will begin the couch to 5K plan all over again. Yesterday, after dinner, I had decided to take my bike for a ride. I rode it as the sun set, and for 30 mins. I set a timer on my iphone so I knew when to stop. For the most part, the ride went well. Only problem was the hands getting sore from the bike handles. I also started watching a little more on what I am eating, for I know I have let that go a bit. Today, I sat on the computer all day, and things got real boring. Finally, the parents wanted to go out for dinner, so I went with them. We went to Dennys. I had Fish and Chips and Broccoli. Not the greatest. I once again felt like a fat ass. After we came home, I decided to get back out there and ride my bike for another 30 mins. This time, I attached my GPS handheld device to the bike to record the milage of the bike. I rode for 30 mins. I stopped and almost quite at 24 mins into the ride, but then I decided to keep going. The hands felt like crap again. At the end of the ride, the GPS said that I had rode my bike 4.4 miles. I have to say that was an accomplishment for me to get out there and ride for the second day in a row.
After the ride, I took a shower and bath. Of course, while just sitting in the bath tub looking at myself I had a few moments in a down. Looked at myself as a fatass where no one would want to be with. Then I started to think that my life is good. I just need to take better of myself and I will lose more weight. I find it quite interesting that everytime I get into a down, and thing about my size, and how without my clothes on; the thing that pops up in my mind is relationship stuff. I don't think about how friends or family see me. Just how girls think of me. Yeah, if I was talking to someone about it, they would say it is the inside that matters. Sadly, I don't believe it is just the inside. Your partner has to like what they see on the outside too, or things just wont happen. Now you might be thinking if I am trying to lose weight to get at girls. No, not all the time. That is just part of it. I do want more energy, and have more capability to do more things, like do longer hikes and whatnot. Losing weight will help with all of that. I am just saying that I find it interesting that every time I get down on my weight, it is mostly because of girls. It just sucks at sometimes.
I had completed the first week of the couch to 5K training plan with great success. Afterwards, I felt I had made a great accomplishment that I would be proud of down the road. When week 2 had began, the first run went great! It was hard for me to jump up the courage to get out there, but I did it! Sadly, this was the last time I had done the training program. The time that I was supposed to run the second day of week 2 of the plan, I had to travel out to California State University Northridge for the 2012 American Camping Association Training. It is a requirement for all 4-H summer camp staff. My plan at this point was to get back on the plan the next day. Unfortunately, that never happened. That coming week was finals week, and I had to put all my attention towards studying for finals. Since half my weekend was spend doing 4-H work, the rest had to be school. I figured finals were more important at that time. I told myself once finals are over, I will pick up right where I left off.
Everything seemed to be alright, until another speed bump hit me. The day after I finished taking my finals, I became sick. Probably because of the stress from finals. Got to love college. Being sick took me out for three days. After I started feeling better, I had Scotty's B-day party to go to. My god I have to say I had a lot to drink that night, and a lot of bad foods. Near the end of the time, I felt like a total fat ass, and started thinking about different things. Of course, not letting my friends see that I had something on my mind. Mostly had to deal with my size maybe the result as to why I can never find girl friends, and how I was probably the only virgin at this party. I was blaming my size as the result of that. Anyway, the next day, after that party, which was great for the post part, I said I needed to get back on track. I spent an afternoon hanging out with Jane. We had a dinner picnic k up at Lake Gregory in Crestline. We did some walking on the trail that went around the lake.
That night, I looked at my calendar, and realized this was a back time to start up the plan. Starting this Saturday, I am to be out of town for 13 days on different 4-H trips and a personal trip. There is no way I can attempt to do a plan while on this. I decided to find another physical activity I can do to start now, then after my trips, I will begin the couch to 5K plan all over again. Yesterday, after dinner, I had decided to take my bike for a ride. I rode it as the sun set, and for 30 mins. I set a timer on my iphone so I knew when to stop. For the most part, the ride went well. Only problem was the hands getting sore from the bike handles. I also started watching a little more on what I am eating, for I know I have let that go a bit. Today, I sat on the computer all day, and things got real boring. Finally, the parents wanted to go out for dinner, so I went with them. We went to Dennys. I had Fish and Chips and Broccoli. Not the greatest. I once again felt like a fat ass. After we came home, I decided to get back out there and ride my bike for another 30 mins. This time, I attached my GPS handheld device to the bike to record the milage of the bike. I rode for 30 mins. I stopped and almost quite at 24 mins into the ride, but then I decided to keep going. The hands felt like crap again. At the end of the ride, the GPS said that I had rode my bike 4.4 miles. I have to say that was an accomplishment for me to get out there and ride for the second day in a row.
After the ride, I took a shower and bath. Of course, while just sitting in the bath tub looking at myself I had a few moments in a down. Looked at myself as a fatass where no one would want to be with. Then I started to think that my life is good. I just need to take better of myself and I will lose more weight. I find it quite interesting that everytime I get into a down, and thing about my size, and how without my clothes on; the thing that pops up in my mind is relationship stuff. I don't think about how friends or family see me. Just how girls think of me. Yeah, if I was talking to someone about it, they would say it is the inside that matters. Sadly, I don't believe it is just the inside. Your partner has to like what they see on the outside too, or things just wont happen. Now you might be thinking if I am trying to lose weight to get at girls. No, not all the time. That is just part of it. I do want more energy, and have more capability to do more things, like do longer hikes and whatnot. Losing weight will help with all of that. I am just saying that I find it interesting that every time I get down on my weight, it is mostly because of girls. It just sucks at sometimes.
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