Tough Times Ahead

     I am sitting here at my computer realizing that things are going to be very tough this next month of December.  For those who don't know, since October, I have only gotten 8 hours of work a month, so as of today I have only worked 16 hours in the past two months.  Its very hard for I use way more money than I am making for gas and food alone.  Now I just paid for my spring semester of college, which maxed out my credit card, and I have no money in the bank.  Lucky my parents are going to help me pay for school, but it makes me feel real bad that I now have to start asking for money again.  It has been 4 years since I have really needed to ask for money to help with things like school.

     I am currently looking for a second job, but all I can see that is available is seasonal holiday work, so once the holidays are over, I would get fired.  My parents suggest that I wait till after the holidays and try to find a job.  It sucks because I so want to be able to afford to get gifts for my family, and I just can't do it.  It will be the second year in a row that I won't be able to do so, and it kinda hurts.  I know that the only things I will be spending money on is gas, food, a trip to the La Brea Tarpits this Sunday (Which I have to do for geology class), and to do a day of paintballing on my birthday (Well Dec 19) with my cousin Krystal, John, my sister Ashley and her bf.  I love to go out and do things, but I wont be able to at all this coming month, and I feel bad because I want to do things with my friends.  Im going to be spending a lot more time at home, and just killing free time with 4-H work and video games, but my xbox live membership ends in mid december, and I won't be able to renew it, so that gives me more sitting time when I have nothing to do or can afford to do.  Now I am starting to feel how some of my friends feel when it comes to no money.

Sorry if this blog was kinda useless.  I just wanted to write down what was on my mind to try to get it out of my mind and get me focused again.  All I can do is keep looking for jobs (I have daily e-mails being sent to be about new jobs) and continue with school.  Hopefully I will get a small consultant job from my ex-boss after the new year.  Will only be about 50 hours or so, but it will look good on the resume and get me some money to survive

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